I think I am finally getting my groove back. At least I am trying really hard. 3 kids does a lot to your body physically and it does a lot to your mind emotionally. I have not taken care of myself in a long time. I rarely do my make-up, dress nice or even do anything to my hair. But that is all changing.
Back up a little bit. I had my third child almost 2 years ago. I gained a ton of weight with her (as I did with all of my pregnancies). Heck, the girl weighed over 10 pounds. After she was born, I was losing the weight just like I had with the other girls. And about 4 months Post Partum I was started to see a difference. This was about September 2007. About this same time I was diagnosed with PPD. I started taking some meds to help with this and started feeling better. However, the meds had a horrible side effect. They made me SO hungry. So, I had baby weight to lose, I was still nursing, and now I was on anti-depressants. All of this was working against me. So I focused on getting the PPD under control and stopped trying to lose weight. Then I got the PPD under control and got off the meds but just got busy with life. Then the PPD started sneaking back up on me. All a vicious cycle.
Well thanks to some friends who have believed in me and been patient with me, I am finally on the right track. I have been working out everyday (even if just a tiny bit). My food portions have decreased significantly. They had gotten out of control when I was on the PPD meds. I am looking at calories and how much I consume. Not necessarily counting them, but being much more aware of how many calories are in everything. I have given up Starbuck's.
And I have to admit, this past weekend I went out of town with some girlfriends. We stayed in a hotel. Well I currently am Wedding Ringless because I had to have it cut off (see previous post). I got hit on/checked out twice and that was most definitely a motivator to keep going. LOL
All of this to say, I have lost 10.5 pounds and have dropped to pants sizes. I am feeling so much better about myself. Most of my life I have been skinny or just right. So this has been a hard journey for me, but I am losing it and getting back down to a healthy weight.
A lot of things have happened the past two weeks that have been real motivators to make me keep pushing. And the past week I have just started feeling so much better about my outward appearance. I am more confident and I am putting more effort in the way I look. All of that is making me feel better inside as well.
So baby, Mama is getting her groove back and it feels great. So now I am ready to post my weight loss blog. I have been ashamed to post this. It has a lot of personal info about my weight, but by sharing it, I think that will be an even better motivator for me to keep going. So here it is, my weight loss blog that I am doing with my girlfriend, Angie.
Hopefully I will have more and more positive info to post about my goals to a healthier, more fit me.